Alex: Have things gotten better since you first started being trans? I remember you were so overwhelmed with switching pronouns and junk. me: ja it's like a tradeoff Alex: ja it has gotten better? me: On the one hand i'm more free and there's more fun and there's this amazing queer community and the kind of friendships and freedom i've always wanted. On the other hand i'm even more incomprehensible to squares and closed minded people and i feel even more alienated from normals. Alex: being alienated from normals bothers you? that's sad me: well yeah dude i don't know Alex: YOU'RE AN ALIEN me too kinda me: like people on the train pull their kids away from me and tell them not to look at me Alex: WHAT me: ja so like i'm "not child friendly" anymore i guess people don't want their kids to know about transpeople, and queers Alex: THAT SUCKS i wear shirts around with naked body parts on them every day almost so i think it's funny when parents are like that but that's so sad when did this happen? me: i don't know, i guess whenever people started recognizing me as trans there are small changes with certain people and our relationships Alex: aw me: like Gordon and Ellie... don't like me as much Alex: :( me: other ppl, i've gotten closer to Alex: if you could change anything you did, would you? me: i don't know, i haven't done anything Alex: haha you're right me: oh you mean like changing my name? i changed my name and stopped policing my gender expression i experimented with pronouns but ultimately decided it's not worth the effort and i'm not gonna push the issues (though those who pick up on my intricacies largely use he/him or ze/hir or they, which i like) i found out that when i'm not "trying" to spin my gender a particular way i feel most comfortable with masculine gender attributes, though not 100%. my only problem with my body is other peoples' tendencies to think that having a female body means i'm a lady Alex: yeah me: i don't try to pass as anything Alex: i like this attitude. me: but yeah it's really pretty simple trans not so scary :) Alex: no, it's cool